Every Night You Visit Me

Every night you visit me.

The room goes dark, but I still see your face.

I see you over me, smell the whiskey on your breath.

I feel your hands on the back of my head.

Every night you visit me.

When my eyes are closed, I feel you there.

I feel you when I’m in his bedroom, the ghost between us.

Trapped in the memory of where I saw you last.

Every night you visit me,

Every time I dare think about someone besides you.

You invaded my dignity, and you invade my most private thoughts.

You destroy the idea of a life without you.

Every night you visit me.

And that’s just how you wanted it to be.

You said you’d be in my life forever when I told you no,

And you made sure you got your way.

Because every night you visit me.

You destroyed every part of my life.

I blame you for that night, I blame you for my pain,
But it’s my fault I can’t keep you out at night.

~E J Royson

Someone is always listening.

Rape, Abuse and Incest National Network

National Sexual Assault Hotline: 1 800 656-4673

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