Because of everything, I understand why you haven't spoken to me in four years. I don't blame you but I wish you would change your mind. There is so much that I wish I could teach you about life and so much I'm missing out on in your life. I remember Melissa and I would come home from school and teach you math. You learned multiplication by age six and had basic algebra mastered by age nine. You are our little genius brother and I miss you.
Today, I would skip the math- you probably know more than I do by now anyway. I've been told you sit at the piano and play sometimes. I always wanted to give you lessons but you never sat still long enough. I still want to teach you because then all three of us would be able to play. I'm so proud of you that you joined marching band and are good at it. I wish I could have stayed with it and I always regret giving up color guard.
I'm also told you still don't have a girlfriend- well there's stuff to learn there too, girlfriend or not. I think the biggest lesson is to not treat your girl like an object. Both girls and guys fall guilty of this, sometimes I do too but I know how much it hurts. She doesn't have to be with you so make sure you let her know how much you care that she is in your life. I know our parents didn't always set the best example. I think no matter who your parents are, it is always good to have another stable couple to look to when it comes to relationships. Sometimes you overlook the bad habits of your parents but those habits manage to come out in your own relationships. By looking to another couple as well, you learn that there is more than one way to do things.
I know you are still in high school but a lesson in life is to take risks. They don't always have to be life changing but sometimes it is good to change things up. I think it's safe to say my biggest risk was leaving home and moving in with dad. I'd never tell you to leave home, unless it's to go to college. Going away for school has been one of the best things I have ever done. Sure, it was scary but I've met so many people from different places with different opinions. If you don't ever leave your hometown for an extended period of time, you miss out on so much of life that is out there. So go away for school. Get out of New Jersey- you can always come home. Learn what others have to say- the worst it can do is make you a better person.
The biggest thing I have to tell you is to stay innocent. Stay young- don't grow up too fast. I can't tell you how frustrated I am with dad harping on me to get a job and how I'm starting to realize being an adult sucks. I miss nap time, not having to study because high school was so easy, having someone else make sure that I am fed everyday, someone else paying for the roof over my head, having someone else buying clothes. When you get older, it is all on you and you don't realize just how much it is until you're an adult. So stay young. I know it's not something that you can control but enjoy it while you can. Go out, be a kid. When you get older and start gaining new perspectives, I hope you give me a call. I will keep my phone on and my heart open. Don't ever feel abandoned. I love you little brother.
Forever.
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